When I die, I want people to remember..

I decided to write this post because one of my fellow peace advocate died this morning. We were all shocked, although he was sick this past few month we still couldn’t believe it happened. The last time I was with him, he treated us to dinner and then he went hiatus. He was loved, for his passion for service and for peace and we would all remember him for that.

Napaisip tuloy ako bigla, ako kaya kapag nawala ako sa mundong ito, ano kaya ang maalala sa akin ng mga tao? May nagawa ba akong mabuti sa kahit na sino? Iiyak kaya sila sa pagkawala ko? Mamimiss kaya nila ako? Ang morbid isipin ng pagkatamatay mo, pero totoo yun mangyayari talaga yun kaya bigla tuloy akong nagchecklist sa mga pinaggagawa ko sa buhay kung papasukin ba akong langit sa qualifications ko. Nakakatakot pero lahat tayo dun ang punta.

When I die I want the people around me to remember as someone who loves passionately and works hard for something and someone she loves and believes in. I want them to remember me as the warm Ate Badet who welcomes them when they visit the TPBPM Peace Home. I want them to miss me when they hear the words that I usually say “eklavu”, “chos”, “awww”. I want them to remember me when they hq is kalat because they know na nasstress ako pag-makalat. I want them to be inspired by my loyalty to the people and things that matter to me. I want them to remember as the sweet pero strict, loving pero straightforward, jolly at baliw na Ate nila. I want them to remember me as someone who has helped them changed their lives and somehow inspired them with my hugots and #latenightthoughts. I want to be remembered as a good person who lives her life loving all the people around her.

At dahil nga mejo nag-emote akong kaunti ako, ito ang ilan sa mga bagay na pumasok sa isip ko:

Hindi mo na kailangang hintayin pa ang bukas para ipaalam sa mga taong mahal mo na mahal mo sila. Kaya kong maya mahal ka, sabihin mo na habang may panahon ka pa habang nandyan ka pa o sya. Kung pwede mong sabihin at ipadama araw-araw bakit hindi? Gawin mo na.

Spend time doing the things that you love and live like it’s your last. Kasi baka nga last mo na 😉 Magmahal kahit masakit, kahit na alam mong masasaktan ka sabi nga sa kantang Iris ng Goo Goo dolls,

You bleed just to know you’re alive.

Make sure you that will be remembered by the good things you have done. Kaya gumawa na nang mabuti para pag katapusan mo na nga, the people you love will not weep but smile because of the life that you have lived.

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